✿002 [Video] (FAIL-LOCKED AWAY FROM THOSE OF THE MALE PERSUASION)

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[Chizuru seems uncomfortable appearing on the network - and not in the usual "Chizuru being socially awkward" way. Like, in the squirmy, shifty, ants-in-your-pants uncomfortable way. Why can't she seem to sit still?]

I think I need some--I mean, where can I find binding fabric? Bandages tend to work just fine, but typically something a little less stretchy, thicker, stiffer fabric--for binding my breasts down, I mean. [In case it wasn't obvious.]

[She looks up in thought, digressing to an aside.] ...though I guess dressing as a boy isn't entirely necessary here. It's not exactly Kyoto or anything...[Allegedly it's just as dangerous, but Chizuru's yet to see that for herself.]

Ahaha...! [Oops, was she talking to herself?] I dunno, what do you think? I haven't worn girl's clothes in a few years now...I don't even know what'd be considered 'normal' for a girl my age to wear these days? Should I aim for kimono like back home, or should I aim to dress like--well, whatever the "natives" here are...[Hmm. Are there any natives? Everyone dresses so differently here, it's hard to tell who's from where.]

What do you think? Should I just stick with what I know? [Though dressing like a girl...well, she did kind of miss it, but she doesn't want to make her housemates uncomfortable with it.]

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[Chizuru tries to smile - but aaah, she didn't mean to upset her!] It's okay! It's okay! It's a preventative measure more than anything! I've been really careful!

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... So.. it's alright after all..?

[ slooowly peeking at the journal again after half-hiding her face. ]

T-the bullies won't bother you anymore?

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[Chizuru shook her head.] Nope! Not anymore! [Unless you counted the oni, but 'bullies' was too simple a word to describe that Pandora's Box.] I'm protected now!

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I.. I'm glad. Nobody should have to suffer from bullies, they're just mean and only hurt people.. l-luckily we have some really, really strong people here who fight against bullies.

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Were you bullied back home too? [Why would anyone pick on someone so sweet?]

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... I've.. had to deal with bullies before, yes.. [ her tone gets a little more quiet. ]

N-not here though. Everyone's really nice here..

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I'm glad to hear that you get a bit of relief here. [She softly smiles.] But I'm sorry you had to deal with bullies. You have lots of friends to protect you now though, right?

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That's right. I'm really glad for my friends here, they're kind people.. and Ikki-kun is really, really nice too. He's my boyfriend..

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[Chizuru blushes slightly at mention of a boyfriend. She looks so young--]

It's so great that you have someone special that keeps you close! [And will protect you, it sounds like...]

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[ don't worry, chizuru, she just seems much younger than she is! ]

Hmm, isn't it the nicest feeling, having someone like that?

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[Chizuru looks up in thought. She can't honestly answer that, since she's kind of...well...]

I imagine it would be, but I can't speak from experience.

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Ah, you don't have someone like that..?

[ kotomi, don't even pretend it's something weird, you never had either until a little while ago.. ]

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[Sob you think it's weird don't you, little girl? Someone so old not being married yet..!]

W-well...! You see, it's war-time where I'm from, so most of the men are kinda...[Dying left and right.]

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... Kinda..?

[ She's just repeating the word, since.. sorry, Chizuru, but subtle things are always completely lost on this girl. ]

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[Sob you're going to make her spell it out aren't you.] Well, most men are fighting, they don't really have the time to concern themselves with marriage and that sort of thing...

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.. Really? Men can't fight and have someone to love at the same time..?

[ She actually starts to wibble a little at that - but it's for reasons Chizuru doesn't know, since it's mainly because her own boyfriend here is quite the fighter and that idea scares her.. ]

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I think...I think they've got more pressing matters to deal with.

[Besides, what was it that Inoue had said? A true warrior wouldn't make a woman cry?]

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B-but.. w-what if you have a fighting boyfriend, w-what then? Is that a bad thing..?

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[Chizuru pauses, a look of concern crossing her face. Then, her face warms with a smile.]

Then you're certainly the luckiest! To have someone who cherishes you enough to try his best to make you happy in spite of everything happening around him.

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[ .. It takes a moment, but then she wibbles less and less until she seems more calm again - surprised, but calm. ]

.. Really? So.. it's not a bad thing after all..?

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Love is never a bad thing, if you ask me! Especially if it's reciprocated!

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I don't think it's a bad thing either. After all.. it's such a nice feeling, and so warm.. something like that could never be bad, right?