✿002 [Video] (FAIL-LOCKED AWAY FROM THOSE OF THE MALE PERSUASION)

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[Chizuru seems uncomfortable appearing on the network - and not in the usual "Chizuru being socially awkward" way. Like, in the squirmy, shifty, ants-in-your-pants uncomfortable way. Why can't she seem to sit still?]

I think I need some--I mean, where can I find binding fabric? Bandages tend to work just fine, but typically something a little less stretchy, thicker, stiffer fabric--for binding my breasts down, I mean. [In case it wasn't obvious.]

[She looks up in thought, digressing to an aside.] ...though I guess dressing as a boy isn't entirely necessary here. It's not exactly Kyoto or anything...[Allegedly it's just as dangerous, but Chizuru's yet to see that for herself.]

Ahaha...! [Oops, was she talking to herself?] I dunno, what do you think? I haven't worn girl's clothes in a few years now...I don't even know what'd be considered 'normal' for a girl my age to wear these days? Should I aim for kimono like back home, or should I aim to dress like--well, whatever the "natives" here are...[Hmm. Are there any natives? Everyone dresses so differently here, it's hard to tell who's from where.]

What do you think? Should I just stick with what I know? [Though dressing like a girl...well, she did kind of miss it, but she doesn't want to make her housemates uncomfortable with it.]

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[ahappylie]

Thank you.

....... [About your future. His and the other one... Ah, something they do need to talk about then.]

If he listens to you, have him see a doctor. I can say from experience, it will not be pleasant for him and the doctors here can help.

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[Chizuru looks pained at that response.] He has. That's how I know...

[As long as Matsumoto is around -- well, without Yamazaki there, it was all on her, wasn't it?] And...my father is a doctor, and I was his assistant, more or less, so...

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[ahappylie]

Then you know how long he has. If he is like me, his pride will keep him from taking much help, but he does need it. There are clinics here. Perhaps you can help there?

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That's the thing. [Chizuru's voice goes quiet.] I haven't had a chance to really talk to Okita-san about it...I'm not even sure if he's been in Ikedaya yet.

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[ahappylie]

Ah...　[Yeah that would be...Hrm.]

But you know of the signs, yes? If I hear anything, I shall let you know.

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[Chizuru nods fervently, then remembering that he can't see her.] Yes...I know the signs too well. [The coughing--it actually sent Chizuru into a fretful panic when she didn't hear it, these days.]

Thank you...[She's nearly on the verge of tears - it's such a relief to have someone to talk to about this. Especially since Yamazaki's dead and gone...]

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[ahappylie]

[He smiles at her through the camera, knowing how hard this must be.]

He is truly lucky to have someone care for him so much.

If you ever need to speak to someone, Chizuru-chan. I'm always willing to listen.

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[There's a pained laugh.] I think he finds it a nuisance, really, but thank you.

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[ahappylie]

It is never a nuisance to be cared about. Even if they do not show it, to lose that someone is the worst pain one can experience.

[and he knows that. he's seen it from both ends]