cannotcrossdress | ✿002 [Video] (FAIL-LOCKED AWAY FROM THOSE OF THE MALE PERSUASION)

[Chizuru seems uncomfortable appearing on the network - and not in the usual "Chizuru being socially awkward" way. Like, in the squirmy, shifty, ants-in-your-pants uncomfortable way. Why can't she seem to sit still?]

I think I need some--I mean, where can I find binding fabric? Bandages tend to work just fine, but typically something a little less stretchy, thicker, stiffer fabric--for binding my breasts down, I mean. [In case it wasn't obvious.]

[She looks up in thought, digressing to an aside.] ...though I guess dressing as a boy isn't entirely necessary here. It's not exactly Kyoto or anything...[Allegedly it's just as dangerous, but Chizuru's yet to see that for herself.]

Ahaha...! [Oops, was she talking to herself?] I dunno, what do you think? I haven't worn girl's clothes in a few years now...I don't even know what'd be considered 'normal' for a girl my age to wear these days? Should I aim for kimono like back home, or should I aim to dress like--well, whatever the "natives" here are...[Hmm. Are there any natives? Everyone dresses so differently here, it's hard to tell who's from where.]

What do you think? Should I just stick with what I know? [Though dressing like a girl...well, she did kind of miss it, but she doesn't want to make her housemates uncomfortable with it.]

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I'm sure you look lovely in women's clothes, Chizuru-chan, and maybe they'd think the same. But wouldn't it be good to let them know that you're thinking about changing your dressing habits beforehand so you could be sure?

Ah--! [Chizuru could feel her breath leaving her at the comment.] It's not about looking lovely..!

I just--I just don't want them to think that I'm uncomfortable or something. I don't want them feeling guilty on my behalf...

I see. But why would they think you were uncomfortable? I mean, you said you've been dressing like this for a long time... Maybe they're just used to it. It's nice of you to think of them so much, though.

Because if I ask, they'll think I don't like dressing as a boy. [Which wasn't untrue, but...] It's...it's complicated, speaking with them about personal things. They have more important things to worry about...

So... you don't want to change without letting them know because it might bother them, but you don't want to ask if they're all right with it because that might give them the wrong idea and also bother them?

[After a brief pause, Kohaku can't help it; she starts to giggle.]

[Chizuru sighs, hanging her head.] Well, when you put it that way, it really does sound stupid...

It's not stupid! Not at all! You're just putting others first, and that's a wonderful thing.

What is silly is that you don't realize how much we all care about you. Your question wouldn't be a bother to anyone. You're very important to all of your housemates!

[Chizuru feels her cheeks start to color, and she hunches her shoulders bashfully.]

It just seems like a waste of time, doesn't it...? To ask them, I mean. Do you think I should just...maybe just once?

It's not a waste of anyone's time. It shows them that you care about them, and it lets you know how they feel. Asking, even once, would be a very good idea.

[Chizuru brings a knuckle to her chin and looks down in thought.] Maybe it'd depend upon who I ask...I'm mostly afraid of bothering Hijikata-san...Okita-san would probably just end up laughing at me...

I can't imagine either Okita-san having a problem with it. I can talk to Hijikata-san, if you're that worried, but I think he'd like to hear it from you.

No no! Please don't talk to Hijikata-san about this..!

Alright, I won't. But someone has to talk to him. You know how he can be sometimes...

...I know...which is all the more reason he shouldn't be bothered with it. [Right?]

Do you think he would be bothered more if you asked him, or if you didn't ask him and he found out you were worrying about it? I don't know him as well as you do, but I think he'd appreciate it if you showed that you trusted him that way.

It's not that I don't trust him...!

[Well, wasn't it?]

I just don't know what he'd prefer. He gets confusing sometimes, is all...

If you don't know, asking is the best thing. Maybe if you communicated with him about this, you could even come to understand him better!

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